I shout at the sky
hoping the stars will get suprised
hoping the moon will look at me...
I threw out the whole lot of questions
and waiting for them to get back at me..
I saw the rabbit inside the moon...it did not move
I saw the stars moving closer to each other but they did not say a word..
I decided to paint the sky with the green so the blue sky would never exist anymore...
but I could not paint the night..I could not the change the dark....because it would make the stars and moon disappear...
donnYBotak battles on Saturday, January 02, 2010 ||
I wish I can freeze time.
Hence, two hours can be forever...
donnYBotak battles on Wednesday, November 11, 2009 ||
I try to deny myself
but I cant help myself...
I try not to cry
but It is too sad for me...
and
I try not to remember
but It is too beautiful to forget...
donnYBotak battles on Wednesday, November 11, 2009 ||
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are they better? or am i worse?
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Mar 15, 2008
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hahaha...
enak kalo nulis sesuatu dimulai dengan tawa...karena maksud tertawanya akan bisa diartikan banyak..maka tulisan inipun bisa dimulai dengan arti yang banyak dan membawa kepada kemisteriusan...
bisa jadi sinis...
bisa jadi tertawa kecewa...
bisa jadi lucu...
bisa jadi tertawa sombong...
bisa jadi....
bisa jadi....
sadarkah bahwa ternyata penyesalan akan kesalahan membawa konsekuensi?
bisakah berubah menjadi baik tanpa intrik dan warna warni?
benarkah pengampunan Tuhan tanpa syarat?
benarkah ada teman yang bisa menerima kita, waktu sedang benar dan waktu sedang salah dan mao benar??
for you that wanna go back from your old wrong and dark ways..i'm with you, bro! because that's where i am now..
I am still on my way...I am walking or at least trying my best to walk in the right and brighter way at the moment..wanna walk together with me? more that happy to walk with y'all...
some people might be better than you..they never make a mistake..they always live in holy and rightous way, they are better in anywaysssss...
but don't worry about them...
The only thing we need to do
1. Don't make the same mistake again.
2.Think more before you do something.
3. Ask your true friend for advise and consideration.
4.Careful before you decide something, think of the consequences.
5.Parents know more that you do sometimes so ask them.
6.Pray for guidance and confirmation!
7.Pray for peaceful heart and rightful mind to make a step.
8.Pray again
9.Pray again
10. Pray and decide.
Mudah2an dengan langkah2 diatas banyak hal bisa kita lakukan dengan baik dan lancar...
it does not matter how much money will you lose...
it does not matter how many enemies you will have
it does not matter how many friends have you lost and couldn't get them back..
it does not matter how many consequences you should face after your mistake..
what matter is...
you don't lose hope because there will always a hope for everybody to be a better person..
you may see every single friends of yours now become enemies..They hate you..they think you sucks...they think you are so bad..they think you are a sinners against God...but if you look very careful inside your heart..YOU WILL KNOW GOD WILL NEVER BE YOUR ENEMY..
you might lose all your friends...but you will never lose friendship with God..
You will face a lot of heavy consequences but you will know that God will be with you to go thru all of them one by one...
what matter is..you will still have hope, compasions, companionship, peacefulness, friendship, love, care...
just say with me, friends...
GOD, I AM SORRY, I MADE A MISTAKE OR EVEN A LOT OF MISTAKES, BUT I TRULLY WANNA BE A BETTER BUDDY.. I NEED YOUR HELP COZ I KNOW YOU WILL MORE THAT HAPPY TO TAKE ME BACK...
donnYBotak battles on Saturday, March 15, 2008 ||
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awas anjing galakkk....
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Jan 23, 2008
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keringetan neh.....kamarnya panas banget..cuma kalo acnya dinyalain, suara teman gua yang diujung telpon kaga kedengeran, acnya berisikkkkkk..jadi lebih baik acnya dimatiin....hehehe
tapi kalo acnya dimatiin..kaya gini neh..kaos yang gua pake mule basah...sama keringet yang agak2 bauuu...hohohohoho
yah tapi kan kudu milih..lebih milih buat adem ga keringetan tapi kaga kedengeran si dia ngomong apa....atau ngomongnya lancar tapi agak2 panas n keringetan...
ini baru pilihan tentang ac n suara....yakin de ama gua, ada banyak banget pilihan2 yang bakal kudu loe jalanin sepanjang hidup loee...
coba inget2 de..pertama kali loe memutuskan satu pilihan buat diri loe sendiri...apa rasanya..apa hasilnya..akibatnya..apa kata orang...dan apa yang loe dapet dari pilihan itu..
waktu pertama kali loe memilih sesuatu buat hidup loe, loe mikir ga sehh?? atau loe milih sesuatu karena itu enak buat loe..ga nyakitin loe...nyaman dan resikonya kecil....atau...loe ngambil itu karena timbangan2 baik dan buruknya dan loe mengambil resiko buat loe bakal susah, bakal dibenci, bakal ga enak banget atau..dkk
mungkin kesempatan pertama kita buat memilih, kitanya masi kecil atau muda, jadi pilihannya ga complicated, ga susah buat milihnya, gampang pertimbangan2nya..resiko dua2anya tidak terlalu besar..jadi mao pilih A atau B sama gampangnya...tp liat de kalo umur loe makin nambah, loe bakal liat or nemuin ternyata pilihan2 di depan loe sekarang lebih susah...
bahkan mungkin hal2 yang harusnya dipilihnya sama dulu dan sekarang ini...tp kenapa ketika umur uda makin nambah kok makin susah banget milihya...kenapa hayo????
karenaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
kalo ternyata semuanya tetep mudah...kita bakalan terus jadi anak kecil..umur nambah, badan tambah gede...tp pikiran perasaan akal dan kepintaran nya ga nambah...
jadi kita semua harus seneng2 aja..ketika dihadapkan sama pilihan2 yang kadang2 susah banget buat dipilih...karena itu menuntut kita buat memaksimalkan pikiran hikmat perasaan dan kepintaran akal kita...
PLUS satu lagi, inilah saatnya loe nyadar, ternyata manusia itu terbatas banget kemampuannya...makanya...kita semua..jangan cuma melihat sosok TUHAN cuman dari sisi spooky2nya doang...or agamawi dan spiritual...lihat sosok Tuhan sebagai pribadi yang setiap saat bisa menjadi temen curhat yang bisa dipercaya..bisa jadi pemberi nasehat sebagai seorang teman, guru, sahabat, saudara, keluarga ataupun pacar dalam satu waktu yang bersamaann...hebat kan...
makanya waktu dihadapkan dalam keadaaan2 yang sulit banget ....di persimpangan yang membingungkan...di tengah kondisi yang simalakama....maju salah mundur salah...kiri kanan semuanya mencaci dan memaki...dihadapkan pada detik2 kehidupan dan kematian harus dipilih...heheheheheh....
disitu sosok TUHAN akan berperan besar...
He can guide you, He can lead you, He can show you a better way, He can give you good advice, He can help you out, He can make things more clear to you..He will make you never regret your decision and choice
ALL YOU GOTTA DO IS ASK, ASK , ASK, ASK AND ASK for advice...
SAY THIS WITH ME...God, You know i am weak and easily confused sometimes. I need You to help me this time. what should i do?? where should i go? which one is good? when is the good time??
hohohohohohohohohoho
donnYBotak battles on Wednesday, January 23, 2008 ||
it's there and it always be there...
i hid it over the rainbow behind the white,
the other part, i left it under the sea behind the blackness of the deep,
so that nobody will never know, not even you
why?
i wish you came and ask me, where it is...
and i can tell you what is inside...
donnYBotak battles on Thursday, November 08, 2007 ||
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in the arms of God
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Oct 18, 2007
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God, are you there??
i heard someone call my name..but i don't who..is that you?? if so, why don't you just show up.
Just show up God, i have couple of things to say to you...
donnYBotak battles on Thursday, October 18, 2007 ||
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i am quiting!
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Aug 6, 2007
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i will quit my nite job..fyi, my nite shift start at 11 pm till 6.30 in d mornin...
dangg, what a job! but i'm quiting anyway, coz i have enough. it's not dat i am not aprreciating what've been given to me...it's just about timing really. i better get my normal life back. you know y? karenaaaaaaaaaaa.....i've doin this for the last 4 years...work at nite, sleep during the day..not gud laaaa.
i already have a job during the day, i am self employed ( wattaaaa???? ) so i believe i shud be enough or covered in money matter ( and also i still beleive that God never stops transferring money to me ). i still can eat a lotttttttttt every day though...
so...i will start a normal life now, work smarter not harder, andddd pray more...
donnYBotak battles on Monday, August 06, 2007 ||
@#@^$#%!!^^(&)^*^%!@
donnYBotak battles on Wednesday, July 25, 2007 ||
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enough for the day...nyahahaha!
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hi thereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
hari ini muncul pelangi di langit biru..
namun pelanginya terlihat beda, kenapa?? karena ...hmm...sudah lama tidak melihat pelangi...
setelah pelanginya menghilang, ada beberapa bintang malam di langit gelap
namun bintangnya terlihat beda, kenapa??karena...hmmm...sudah lama tidak menikmati indahnya langit malam dengan hiasan bintang...
setalah bintang2 mulai padam ditiup sinar siang, ada awan2 mendung tarik menarik saling mengoda
namun kali ini awannya terlihat beda, kenapa??karena..hmm..tak pernah lagi memperhatikan awan mendung, karena..hmmm...terlalu sibuk menghindari hujan lebat setiap harinya...
hufffffff??? ini keluhan hari ini??? bukannnn...ini keluhan beberapa saat ini....
tapi ada yang tak berubah...
aku tetap senang melihat pelangi, karena warna pelanginya selalu sama
aku tetap senang melihat bintang di langit malam, karena sinarnya tak perna padam menerangi malam.
dan awan mendung selalu berhasil mencuri perhatianku, karena isi awan mendung selalu air hujan...tak pernah air yang lain!
donnYBotak battles on Wednesday, July 25, 2007 ||
